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Jun 27, 2025, 06:28AM

Internalized Homophobia

Gay-on-gay hate: when the call is coming from within the LGBTQ house.

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I’ve never walked around an elephant and pretended it’s not there, so let’s get into the big one in the LGBTQIA+ living room. Last week as part of my month-long Pride series I wrote a piece on Corporate Pride. Although I covered the decrease in big-corporate spending, I wasn’t necessarily complaining about it, saying that smaller business and grassroots support were more aligned with the community founding of Pride anyway. I ended up being attacked here on Splice Today by “another writer” who “loves to overuse quotation marks” in the comments section, on Twitter, and in a “sloppy response piece” where he inappropriately referred to me as “Maryland lesbian Mary McCarthy.”

While I’m a fan of the genre, as a married mother of four adults, I don’t identify as a lesbian. The writer came out as a gay man in the comments on my post, amusingly quoting another “gay conservative” who did a survey on X which a majority of liberals/gays left ages ago to try to argue some crap about “non-leftist gays being happier.” Sure, Jan 6. I don’t get stats from someone “in the community” who polices the word “queer” (I’m bisexual, but queer is how I generally identify), trashes drag queens, uses transphobic slurs, defended Trump for eliminating the youth LGBT suicide line, and for the love of Christ actually uses the n-word? Insane shit.

So what are we dealing with when a gay white man gatekeeps gay for only himself, declaring absolutely everything else under the LGBTQIA+ community outlawed, talking about “gender dysphoric,” “weird fetishes” and other punching-down ironic homophobia? It’s privilege, an easy cross-over to bullying behavior.

Unfortunately there are examples of gatekeeping behavior such as transphobia and biphobia within the lesbian community as well, and I’m disheartened by it but would never cross into lesbophobia as a result. I do feel “TERFs” (trans-exclusionary radical feminists) aren’t feminists—you either support women or you don’t, you don’t get to decide who identifies as women. Of the 50+ Pride flags, under the Queer spectrum I do like Abrosexual best: the concept that how we identify changes over time.

Friendly fire within the community isn’t okay. So when and why does it happen? The overzealous gatekeeping, gay-on-gay hate, the internalized homophobia? Gays who hate when people are “too gay” and “in your face?” Gays who can’t come out because of shame, try to “pray the gay away” or have considered suicide?

According to Revel and Riot, “internalized homophobia happens when LGBQ individuals are subjected to society’s negative perceptions, intolerance and stigmas towards LGBQ people, and as a result, turn those ideas inward believing they are true. It has been defined as ‘the gay person’s direction of negative social attitudes toward the self, leading to a devaluation of the self and resultant internal conflicts and poor self-regard.’ (Meyer and Dean, 1998) or as “the self-hatred that occurs as a result of being a socially stigmatized person.” (Locke, 1998).

Internalized homophobia can lead to horizontal oppression, which happens when an LGBTQIA+ person, subjected to homophobia/biphobia/heteronormativity, begins to discriminate against other community members, perpetuating oppression. This behavior destabilizes movements for justice and equality, and keeps LGBTQIA+ community members fighting amongst themselves rather than focusing on the big-picture issue of institutionalized oppression. According to one study, targets of ingroup microaggression experience general mental, emotional and psychological distress—with specific mentions of stress, depression, anxiety, trauma, and feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, loneliness, displacement, invisibility, anger, sadness, and fear.

Horizontal oppression can manifest as anything from:

• Closeted politicians, religious leaders and “powerful” people who advocate and lobby against the LGBTQ community.

• Feeling disgust towards other LGBTQ people who don’t express themselves in a heteronormative way.

• Excessive judgment of other LGBTQ people.

• Anger and resentment toward other LGBQ people for being out, or proud of their identity.

• Transphobia, gender policing, shaming or harming LGBTQ individuals who don’t fit into the gender binary.

• Anger or embarrassment that other LGBTQ people “represent” you.

As a bisexual woman with Borderline Personality Disorder and health issues, I don’t play victim, but life isn’t always easy. Wednesday night I went to the Baltimore Orioles Pride night and had a great time—there wasn’t anything negative that happened other than the Orioles suck and lost. I woke up Thursday morning and went to the Orioles social media page to thank the team for hosting the event, and had to be exposed to the horrific, disgusting, hateful comments from neanderthals who can’t manage to keep their mouths closed or their minds out of other’s bedrooms. I was in tears. No wonder the suicide rate among bisexual women is three times higher than straight women; we’re subject to the most evil-filled online hate every time one of our favorite sports teams dares to be supportive.

So fuck off, gays hating on gays. If you were brave enough to come out, you don't get to close the gate behind yourself. This is a community. In a community, people are supposed to look out for one another. If someone’s wearing a thong and rainbow makeup or doing drag or doesn’t look like you and makes you uncomfortable, take a look in the mirror because that’s about you, not them. They have just as much of a right to express themselves as you do to be boring and vanilla. Your hate is a projection.

—Follow Mary McCarthy on Bluesky and Instagram.

—Pride series articles this month: Rainbow of Peace, Corporations Chicken Out on Pride, No Kings, Yas Queens, Queer Doll History, It’s Not Veterans Month, Make America Gay Again

Discussion
  • Nate Silver does not identify as a conservative, if we are not going to force people to accept labels they don't use themselves. I'm not a homophobe (yet) as much as the gay Left, with mutilating kids and prancing Drag Queens through kindergarten libraries, would like me to be. I was concerned though that Mrs. McCarthy found it hard to follow my article, though I wrote it in word salad as she notes, the patois of the white women Kamala voters. So here's a longer version of the same piece; maybe the connective tissue will help. Now I'm off to toast the Supreme Court decisions. https://brucemajors.substack.com/p/pride-isnt-it-queer

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  • "I ended up being attacked here on Splice Today by "another writer" who "loves to overuse quotation marks" in the comments section". I plead guilty to the overuse of quotation marks but who is attacking who here Mary? I made 3 comments on your Corporate Pride piece all of which were focused on public indecency at my cities annual San Diego Gay Pride parade and none of the comments attacked you or even mentioned you. I pointed out the beyond the pale indecent behavior of what takes place at the parade where children are present and you call that "homophobia" and for describing the details of what the parades participants engage in you accuse me of having a "fetishized fantasy" but say nothing about the people who are actually doing these lewd acts in front of children. They are the real fetishizers here are they not? Your only response was "parents have agency over where they bring their children". If these kind of over the top displays of public indecency happen at events like the SD Gay Pride Parade which takes place on a public street for the whole community to see at least they should have a public advisory notification for the parades attendees which might read something like " Welcome everyone to the annual Gay Pride Parade. We hope you all have a great time today and enjoy all the festivities. For parents with children or minors under 18 we would like to notify you that there is a strong possibility that this event will contain nudity, displays of perverted exhibitionism and lewd and lascivious behavior among the parade participants. Those who are sensitive to these types of displays and behaviors should take this advisory into account when considering attending this event. We thank you all for attending and may each of you have a wonderful day!"

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  • @crestrider I was talking about bruce, who took the time to write an entire homophobic, transphobic, racist, anti-drag piece in response to me (as a gay man) during Pride, not you.

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  • If you queers are going to behave so badly in public, you are going to have to expect "homophobia" https://www.instagram.com/reel/C8AjrxWvmXq/

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  • Stabbings are the newest Pride ritual https://www.instagram.com/reel/C8AjrxWvmXq/ Maybe because the cities that have them defund the police

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  • New evidence that being queer causes obesity https://x.com/itslinklauren/status/1939465307736690723

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  • Okay Mary, sorry for the confusion. Just to add one more point, many of us myself included tend to engage in negative cherry picking on events such as the The Pride Parade and overlook the positive aspects like the friendly vibes, love and comradery that exists among many of the Pride Parade participants and attendees. This should be acknowledged and commended but many of us sort of gloss over it and focus on the objectionable stuff... Putting my negative cherry picking hat back on I do wish these Pride Parades would clean things up at their public events. What they do in private is none of my business but what happens in public is the communities business and it is my business at least in part to speak out since I am part of the community. A case in point [and there are far worse examples of this] is the recent Seattle Pride Parade through a community in Seattle where a large group of fully nude cyclists are parading in front of young children..https://x.com/TPostMillennial/status/1673057359911075840..I wish someone involved in the parade would speak up and say "Hey buddies! You are cycling through a community where families live and where young children are in attendance. Could you please put on some shorts a speedo or at least a damned jock strap you Sick F#%ks."

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